The Affairs .:

& the race begins..

2009-01-07T00:35:00.000-08:00

I am officially back in school.yes still in SCHOOL =P
I was actually scared to go back.I mean I had those issues and everything.
But then I went back,it wasnt all bad,I mean I felt some akwardness and all but then everything was fine and I was actually having fun!
I missed alot of people and it was nice seeing them again after like a month!haha.
But yeah the issues are still there I guess,I just choose to not deal or even care.
Life's too short to be even thinking about them I swear.
So I go to my first class and THANK GOD the calculus teacher wasnt there.I didnt even do the hw she gave us.So the sub who took over LOVED me,so I didnt do anything that period.hahaha.I just kept talking and everything.
Goes on for all the periods and I realized Iwas actually happy at one point =)
It was such a relief for me. Alhamdulillah.
Hope it goes on to be like this.
Semester exams are coming up and I really needed to study.I wanted to stay in Bahrain and sign out with my friends to do a study group but I was crazy shocked about what was going to happen in Bahrain those 2 days so I decided to go back to Saudi.
I'm trying to study but haha yeah,this post showed up so imagine what I'm doing now :P
Updating soon.bye loves xxx

Winter Break & its hooligans =D

2008-12-18T22:18:00.000-08:00

ok woooooo!wo wo woooo.haha
i think its been forever since ive written nything heree.
why?BUSY BUSY BUSY.
ok so now im having winter break coz well its winter here.just with no snow :P
school's off for a whole month,jyeahh babyyy.but loads and loooaaaddsss of homework.
screw that!haha =P
the first and 2nd week was AMAZINGGGGG.hmm hmmmm.
we went to dubai,oman and abu dhabi.omg yess ROADTRIP!
after so many years,we had to move to saudi arabia to do one again.
daddy wud always do them when we were living in the States but when we moved back to Malaysia,he just grew too lazy to do anything..so this was kinda refreshing.
so this is how it wentt...

i forgot what day it was but i think it was on a Wednesday.
we woke up at 3am.yes people 3 am.not good for the girl who at least wakes up at 12 in the afternoon.
mama forced us to pack the night b4 to avoid any fuss or moodswings from the PARENTS in the morning.
i got up half no 75% still asleep and took shower.shit the water was cold so i was wide awake afta that.haha
i went dow,didnt care bout breakfast coz it was wat?4am!
we packed and we were on the road by 8.haha nice plan daddy,u wanted to be out of the house by 6 :P
so then i wasnt comfortable AT ALL in the car.
1st of all,there were too much bags for a week's trip.haha dun blame me!i need my clothes :P
in the car daddy was going on and on about how we GIRLS cant save some space and bring less clothes.
all of my sisters were looking at me as if im the only one.and i was defending myself!i was like 'what if sumthing happens?what if my clothes get dirty?what if we were robbed?what if rain falls suddenly and our clothes get wet?'
hahahaha bab2 ni la yg best merepek.daddy shut off afta that.
i tried sleeping but my BUTT was too numb by 9am.hahaha.
so did a lil reading and all.
oh so yaa fell asleep and woke up to the sound of the GPS

yes people,during the whole roadtrip,we used a GPS.thank god it didnt turn out like the movie where the GPS scrwed up and brought the people to CHina.hahahaaaha :DD

our first destination was ABU DHABI =D
the country was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L !!!
gunung ganang merata2 and they were rock mountains,not the ones like in Malaysia or forveer never have in Saudi Arabia.HAHAHA.
we arrived at night and we got lost!
yesss the GPS scrwed up A LIL..
our hotel was located on sum huge ass mountain and we cud see it from far but we cudnt reach the place!
haha so it took us bout an hour wondering arnd the place trying to fnd the road that led up to the mountain.
FINALLLY at like 11pm we found it.
SHIT the mountain was HUGEEEE and i mean it.
the altitude change brought ringing in my ears like crazyyyy. and it took like half an hour upp that mountain.
hahaha unlike kat Mesia,we cant change the gear here.soo it was hard i guess for mama to drive.
but the view from above was amazingggg.it was so pretty.u cud see the whole Abu Dhabi from that mountain.oh the the place was called Al-Ain.the mountain was called Jabal sumtingg.agagaga i forgot :P

when we reached the hotel it was sooo cold outside my fingers were turning purple.hahaha yaaa purposely using PURPLE coz its my fav color :P
but yeah we only stayed at the hotel which was amazinggg for a night coz we had to head off to Oman.
in the morning i woke up got ready and we were out by 12.hahaaha
isnt it amazing how four daughters cud stall the time for so long just to get ready?hahaha.
daddy was mad to his pits! ;D i love you daddyy.thanx for being patient <33

so ondaway down we stopped at a few resting stops to take pics.and daddy started bebeling about the rocks on the mountains since i wanna be a geologist.
but hahahaa they looked all the same to me =D
then *snap snap* we took pics at a few stops.
but this one perticular stop i HAVE to tell you guys about.
hahah this was gonna be the joke MY laughter thorughout the whole trip.
did i mention that during the roadtrip,i saw more indians than arabs in their country.
yes people,labor force.but yeahh.
so we got out of the car.and no other nations were in sight besides indians ok.
so i was like wooo ookaaayyyy =D
hahaha and then literally OUT OF NOWHERE,this huge CHINESE group came ok.
yes it was proven that they were from CHINA coz daddy asked.hahaha
and i started bursting out laughing!
i was like "OMG MALAYSIA DO!!!"
achik and angah took awhile to figure it out but then they started bursting out laughing too!
daddy was like wth is wrong with my kids?
HAHAHAHA.
ok so for those who are still lost in the universe :/
so there were Indians, then Chinese, and then came along the Malays who were us!
what does that equal??
haha MALAYSIA ok.get it?
hahahaaa yeahhh agk jakun ok but i tot it was funny.coz cm coincidence gile!hahahaa :D

so *snap snap* again..
and we were off to OMAN.!!!
it took crazy 10 hours to get there.my BUTT was numb like crazyyyyy. & i think we got lost again.but i was too tired to evn care.i slept until we got to the border.i took quite a while there but i realized sumthing,
oman was exactly like abu dhabi!!!
oh did i forget to mention, a lil geography for people;
abu dhabi is part of UAE so afta we were thru the customs there,we didnt have to go thru them again to get to dubai. haha so 3 countries but only 2 borders through :)

nyways oman was a rocky as abu dhabi but it was amazinggg.hahah the thing was when we got there,it started raiing.
yes winter time,and it rains there.hahaha.it was pretty amusing to me coz we didnt expect rain in oman.
we got near the city,we were heading to Muscat and OMGGG.
OMGGGGG,there was a freakinggg flash flood in Muscat.
yes people FLASH FLOOD,and sebab i was JAKUN like shit coz you dont get flash floods in these places.
it was weird enuf there was rain,but flash floods???
yeah it was 10 o'clock at night and i was amazzzeeedddddd =D
daddy siap amek video but we missed the good parts,hahah there was a huge truck stuck in the middle of the road.gosh flash floods,can u imagine that?and u cud see kids playing in the water.STUPID.hahaha
cm malaysia lak :')
so nyways we arrived in Muscat and daddy the smart one forgot to book a hotel,so we had to find a decent apartment to live in.
option 1: indian past 1950s hotel
option 2: arabic decent hotel apartment.
oh yes yes!option 2 ok!hahaha.we were freaked outt,the thought of staying in an old indian hotel gave me the creeps :P
so we settled in,ate and slept.
next morning kua jln2,and omg the scenery was amazingggg.
OMAN is such a beautiful country no douubt about it.
and to top it of,it was sucha clean ciuntry too!im siyes not joking at all.
the streets and sidewalks were ZERO percent of trash.NADAAA :D
it was niceeee,and u dont see people literring too.
the people were soo freindlyy,it was nice too see people like them :)
we went to the forts and GRAND PALACE of the sultan.

oh and apparently Oman is actually called the Sultanate of Oman.
hahaha yeahh geographyyy in my blog.FUN xD
then we went to this one fort near the seaside,and it was a climb of a 4 storey hugh building!
gile babi pny gayat and i had to hold baby's hands.it was crazy scary but worth the view from the top.haha but the climb down was the scariest.i was scared for daddy at one point when he took ten minits to get down.hahaha.

so then more sight seeing in Oman,went shopping.
bought a shisha set.PURPLE.hahahaa.nice but no im not trying it :)

then after 3 days we were off to DUBAI =))
didnt take long but we got lost in the mountains.and there was no immigration to get passed so it was easy.
got there and saw the AL-BARJ.it was pretty at night and the builidig constantly changed colors.AMAZING all i cud say.
but then yeah the bad part,we were LOST
literally LOST.
the GPS cudnt pick up the address of our hotel.so we had to find the hotel ourselves.
it took us 2 hours to find it and we were starving to death.hahaha
yeahhh the miracles of the GPS aint that great :P
we finally found the hotel and i crashed down and just slept.
woke up next morning went sight seeing and went shopping!
ohh the highlight of the stay in dubai was TWILIGHT.
omgg imma hugeee fan thanx to my beloved suami qurratu aini!
hahahahaa.
we went to the cinema in the Mall of Emirates.
omggg packed with peopl from everywhere!but yes in dubai,commonly?philipines.
hhmm mmm.hahahah xD
we did shopping and went to 3 diff amazing shopping malls.
mall of emirates, ibn kha??? mall and sum other mall i forgot.
the architecture was cool.hahaha.and yeah we got to see this art show displaying arts made from redbull cans.it was hillarious!
people are pretty creative when it comes to that energy drink.hahaha.
after 4 days,we headed back home.
it was an amazing roadtrip.lost along the way but we found our way.
thanx daddy we love youu.
hahaha my highlights for winter break is offcially over.! :P

Ras Tanura is getting more and more cold and im freezing my butts off here.
missing my freinds and cant wait to go back to bahrain despite the mountain loads of hw.
hahaha.

ohhh kteorg maybe pegi bahrain next week,to celebrate baby's 8th bday.
23 dec her big day.
hahahaa.
will update soon!
lots of love !xxoxoxoxo

p/s i'll upload pics ASAP ok.
internet's been down like shit here.

As the heart moves on..

2008-11-13T12:06:00.000-08:00

figured i needed a catching headline some time soon :P
haha.
so yeah i havent been blogging much.its hard finding time these days.
they just pass by so so fast. well here i am again.
weakened from life and tired as usual. I guess i dont have much strength but i never care at the end of the day. Cause another day is just coming ahead. New day New start.
ok merepek bla bla bla bla..bla bla bla..
im kinda lost in words now.
so oh well now its getting colder since winter's coming.
yes,in Saudi Arabia,where theres sand and sand and sand.we do have winter and it gets REALLY cold here.
so people are getting sick coz maybe they're not used to it.but so far im good still.
nothing much going on now but i just realized that i had sum lessons in life learned especially this week.

'THERE'S NO POINT OR USE IN FIGHTING FOR SOMETHING THAT YOU KNOW IS NOT GONNA BE WORTH IT AT THE END OF THE DAY.'

yes people that has always been my lesson of life and yet i never learn.
i hurt and never learn.but hey its life.nothing's perfect in life.
but nyways im getting the point now. this message has to stick to my mind sum time soon.
its how life is,you hurt you move on.
ive accomplished part of that but i still have a far way to go.
im starting now.and i know i am. SO PROUD :)
but yeah continuing, winter's break is cuming up soon.
last day of school is on Dec 4 and we have a month off.
yay!but i know there's gonna be soo much work to dooo.argghh.

So far there's no plans at all. Egypt? cancelled.. Malaysia? cancelled.. Qatar? cancelled.
so basically there's no plans for anything!hope i can just have sleepovers with my friends and have fun.hope they're not gong anywhere tho.
Winterball is also coming up but i havent discussed it with mama and daddy yet.shit.i have to talk to them bout "it". hope it goes well.

oh yeah i almost forgot!
to all my friends back in malaysia,yg amek spm tuuu;
GOODLUCK!!!! i wish all the best for all of u guyss..
YOU can DO IT!!!one more fugging step and you're FREEEE!!! :D
ok not for forever but u know what i mean.
im soo jealous!they're almost finihsed and i have 2 mre years stuck here.
hahaha.

oh well.people take different courses in life right?

hmm got nothing more to say now.will update soon.
mwahx!

Halloween

2008-10-30T14:53:00.000-07:00

well yeah we do have it here.HALLOWEEN.
kalu kat mesia,haram kalu smbut sbb psl hantu and syaitan sume,tp yeah funny gak,arb saudi,still ade meh?haha.
probably bcoz our compound and our school American-based so mmg drg smbut pun.
but nyways,Bahrain School had a Spooktacular Bash and it was a major event at that night.
ramai gile org dr luar and skolah len dtg.wahh meriah gile arh.
mule2 i wasnt gonna go coz mama wanted us back home but then angah had to go buy the tickets so we went instead.i was worried coz i didnt plan it out with my friends so i didnt know who i was gonna go with but then turns out Jess was goin so i was goooood :)
mule2 ingat nak dress up la nak pakai costume sume but it was last minit!i had no damn costume and the last 30 minutes of the event i find out that i was gonna help with the Not-So-Haunted-House for the lil kids!
hampeh gileeeee plan!tade costume so i went as a gypsy 'supposedly'.HAHA :P
bile tny org i look like what,they all said i looked like myself.i was like WTH??haha.but then people figured out soon i act looked like a gypsy!yay me :D

so then me and jess arrived from the dorm to school and damn the school looked amazing!the commitee did a really great job in decorating and all.nmpk live cm umah berhantu u wud say.haha.
so then the first agenda was going trick-or-treating like in the movies!oh gosh i havent been trickortreating in such a long time sjk2 dok kat Texas dulu.and now dpt merase blk.haha tp len sket lah,kalu dlm movies u go to house to house,this one u pegi kat one person to the other asking for candy.
hahah penuh jugak my bag!rase cm dak kecik lak :)
then me and jess were planning to chill je UNTIL her mom panggil kate ken awat shift at the kids' haunted house.alamaaaaaak dah naik malas dah rasenyeee.
but then we stole time to go to the haunted huse for teenagers.haaaa this one supposedly was gonna be scary coz it was all set up by the military guys from the American base.hahah so me and jess lined up with omar and others, but didnt care that much.
we went in a group of 6,us girls only.masuk2 pun dah seram gileee,kena lari la ape lah.
gelap gileeee dlm da room,seb bek ade glowinthedark sticks yg kteorg dpt mule2.so then nmpk la hantu gelak2 and people hanging from the ceilings.
mule2 ingat patung je,rupe2nye it was a real person!abis die jerkah i and smpt tngkp i kat tgn.i lagi la jerit cm org gile lari2 sume smpi terlanggar dinding.HAHAH.
haaaa this is when the funny part comes,!
pas terlanggar dinding,i got all dizzy and we were lost coz i was infront!hahaha i tried going thru the wall and all but didnt work so we started screaming.then lagi bangang the military guy yg supposedly our guide lari cm org gile saying "its fine its fine jst look down and crawl!" and we were like WHAT???
hahah pastu nmpk tunnel kat bwh.so we crawled thru and we made it out but the tunnel was pointless act.
hahah oh wells,credits to the army people.it was act a good haunted house but none can beat the one at Seef Mall with the chainsaw and all.hell yeah man that one's just crazy :)

then afta that me and jess headed staright to the kids haunted house.and we had to be the guides to the entrace.it was nice act being on shift.first of all i got CAS hours which is community service for IB which i really needed and 2nd of all i knew most of the lil kids and they LOVE me :)
not bragging at all but since i jadi TA(teacher's assistant) for elementary school,everyone from that part knew me and they were all coming up to me.its was fun coz i LOVE lil kids (:
then my shift took 2hours!two crazy hours WITHOUT FOOD.so u cud imagine how grumpy i was.then i finally got off shift and ate pizza hut but then i had no time to play all the games!
oh well it was a fun night act. so it was all good.
the next morning i went back to saudi.

after that we had another carnival in saudi which was kinda lame bcoz it was all for lil kids and since i had a lil sister i had to go babysit her.
mama and daddy were in a diff camp sbb ade opn house so i got stuck with all my sisters.
honestly it sucked bcoz i was already bored and going to a place like that made me more misrable but for the fun of my sisiter i just went.
came back home exausted like hell.and now typing this up.

*oh yeah MAJOR ATTENTION,ill try uploading pictures of events here soon.
still new with the blog so need time to figure out :)

Amazing~

2008-10-23T15:02:00.000-07:00

this amazing person.this wonderful amazing person.this person who i love so much.
she taught me something today.i cant give up on things that were meant to be.
things that were meant to stay with me forever.
like my friendship with her.she taught me that we could succeed in keeping the friendship alive.even though billions of miles separate us, we can still make it.
u lose friends.u'll lose them alot throughot ur lives.u'll lose people who u love and care about every time,but there are those who stay with you forever.she's one of them and i know for sure.

smlm, bile i rase down sngt,i opned my myspace and i wondered how long was it that i replied everyone's comments and all.omg LAME GILE dah ok.i'm sorry guyss.cm tde mood lgsg nak repply.nak keep in touch with u guys but there's so lil time for me to do.
but this amazing person, qurratu' aini, she still had the time for me.oh how i love her so.
she came at the right moment when i had those emotional breakdowns.tyring to figure out my life and all.
she said alot of things that opned my eyes.that said to me that me and her are gonna be fine.
it sucks having to lose those you love.it sucks just having to end everything so beautiful.but she told me that's not gonna happen and i believe her :)
old things can to rekindle.i have proof but i shall not say who.but its good.
u cant just walk away and become a coward for the failure of one relationship.move on and keep striving in the ones you already are in.that's what im gonna do.

To Que;
Awk,kte tw awk akn bace nih sooner or later.and myb awk akn nanges je bile abis bace nih.haha awk tapeee,kte pun sme.awk kte syg gile babi kat awk ok.thanx sooo much sbb wat kte sedar yg kteorg still akn stay da same.i know i can count on you no matter what.how ironic wey we became closer afta kte pindah.awk tw u always have me to tell stories to kalu awk rase awk xleh nak cite kat spe2 lagi.just tell me i can lend an ear but not a shoulder for you to cry on.i miss the befores wey,bile slalu lepak and all.slalu gossip and all.i miss it.nak je blk ke mase tu.but i know kte xleh nak pegang sngt to the past,i have to move forward and im gonna do that.heck yeah que,kte dah lme dah wat cm2.& awk tw betapa susahnye kte kena wat.but yeah awk,ade gak those times when i rmmbr the past.& the saying is true,to rmmbr hurts more than to forget.
Pape pun jadi kte tw kte ade awk and awk kena tw awk slalu ade kte.xsaba sngt nak jmp awk ti.
& yes bile jmp,xnak nanges,kena nikmati mase kteorg sme2 k.ilysdm qurratu' aini <333

Tercipta Untukku

2008-10-22T14:02:00.000-07:00

MY ALL TIME FAVORITE;

Menatap indahnya senyuman di wajahmu,
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku.
Menanti akan hadirnya cinta terindah,
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku.
Banyak kata yang tak mampu ku ungkapkan kepada dirimu..

Aku ingin engkau selalu,
Hadir dan temani aku,
Di setiap langkah yang meyakiniku,
Kau tercipta untukkuuu..
Meski waktu akan mampu menluruh seluruh ragaku,
Ku ingin kau tahu ku selalu milikmu,
Yang mencintaimu sepanjang hidupku..

this song reminds me of the people most important to me.
the ones who i loved and who i still love.
life goes on in a way that you seem you have forgotten.
but you would know yourself that its still there somewhere in your heart.
i miss the days i was happy with them.with all of them.i truly do.
we had so many cherished times that i could have never imagined in our life.
we're seperated but i still remember.
the memories,
joyful, heatbreaking,everything.its still here with me.
the times spent together, the memories made can never be replaced even if you say it.
you come to the point when you can never compare it with anything else.but life is cruel,i admit.
you get what you want then its gone and you start from scratch.
but you can never say you forget,because forgetting is for those who are scared.
scared that they will never forget the memories,scared the times would haunt them forever.
but by not forgetting, you learn.you learn from your own mistakes and also others.
thats what i did.thanks guys, you made part of what i am today.and if you're reading this, you know who you are.
for those still loved, i really miss you.
for those whom i say i've forgotten, to hell with the hate.

i just felt like expressing this.yes this is my all time favorite.xoxo

pretty bz weeek :)

2008-10-10T12:41:00.000-07:00

yes it was..very very bz week.
not so much fun i guess.something's going on but it hard to explain.
arrghh relationships getting ruined again and again.
but my grades are up!thats a good thing.busting my head off with formulas in physics and calculus.
studying is hard now.hahah i cud admit to that too. :P
and and guess what?i got an A in my physics test!for the first freaking timeee!im sooo happy!
from all the F's ive been getting.sucha embarrassment.hahaha. so im doing pretty good.

Eid's almost over for us i guess but for the malaysians here,it still on a roll.got a few more ied parties next week so it shud be fun.
we missed out a major one yesterday and i was sooo mad!we cud have been here having fun but we were all stuck in bahrain in school!
fyi bahrain weekends are on fridays and saturdays and saudi weekends are on thursdays and fridays.*
but wtv,i got to see dekna bie achik and the guys soo it was ok :)
lme x rase lemang woo.gile besh!:DDD

mama was supposed to be making the kuih raye sum more but sumone had to put the butter inside the fridge again so now we cant.stupid! now i just have to wait for another batch next week.

argghhh wanting to say more things but my mind is messed up now..

i miss tasya and fzln.i have to call them soon.im feeling homesick again this time.hope it gets better.

i miss you guysss xoxo

I'm sorry .

2008-10-03T07:27:00.000-07:00

people might have known all this while how we were the "it" thing.
people might have known that all this while we were forever. but it didn't turn out like that.
US?it was a disaster. i'm never regretting anything coz we had beautiful moments.but hatred came over me and wanting to forget you is the worst thing that i cud have ever done.but i did.no more tears no more heatbreaks.im over you.
the way u screwed things up even more made me disgusted of you.how u never realized that part of it was because of you made me despise you.
i'll pray one day you will admit your mistakes as i did to you.i don't love you anymore but i don't hate you too.
let our paths not cross anymore.coz that wud break my heart even more.
How cud sumthing so beautiful turn out to be the biggest mistake ever?
When all u do is hoping for the best,hell breaks loose?
When all u want is happiness for eternity,u lose all of it in a blink of the eye?
It's ok to deny everything.But move on.

I know in a way u think of it too.Heck i know you do.But don't make me hear about you again.
I'd suffer.Oh i admit i wud.To ever look at you again is never.I wud never want to again.
Again let our paths not cross no more.
Sorry,for all that has happened.Sorry,for all the memories.Sorry,for all the hatred.
SORRY.

Sisterly loveeee + Angah's bday :)

2008-10-03T05:28:00.000-07:00

You know when they say;
"Air yg dicincang xkan terputus."
Its true,for a fact its true.
Relatinships within the family might have their ups and downs.
Heck its not normal if there arent any probs.
But these things are what makes the relationship stronger.

I have 3 sisters.God knows how much i love them.
But yeah we fight ALOT!sometimes when we fight we forget we're sisters.but then when we're not fighting,everyone cud know how much we love each other.
Me as the eldest,im not exactly perfect sister material.but i really try hard sometimes.I wanna set an example for them when they grew up.
let them be successful as i am InsyaAllah.Thats what i hope.And for us to fight less and treat each other not just sisters but bff.
We were like that in Malaysia.Heck we were a lot closer compared to now.And ever since we moved to Saudi its been really hard to have a descent talk with them.I miss the times in Malaysia when we wud just talk and talk and talk forever everythime they got back from school.
We wudngo into our rooms and gossip or bitch about sumone.or just tell each other about our daily probs.It was so much fun back then.
We wud do that now too but it doesnt feel rite.
More and more since me and angah live in the dorm so we hardly see achik but we try to make the best out of it.
But honestly,this year is a wholeeee lot better than last year.
I hated the fact that we werent exactly sisters last year with all the fights and dramas that was going on.
I regret all of it.But in a way im thankful it all happened.coz it helped us mend our realtionship.
the things that happened last year taught me that i cant just give up on my sisters.We cud be how we were in Malaysia of we just tried.
And Alhamdulillah we are soooo much better this year.
I hardly get into fights with them and i feel really happy :)
i love them all,and i want them to appreciate me as i do to them.

To Angah;
HAPPY Sweet Sixteen!!!!
I hope ur happy on ur bday.i hope u have fun.
I hope u grow up too coz im soo proud of u this year.I hope u keep this up so we cud be the sisters that we were b4.I know we're getting there.
I want u to make mama and daddy proud.I know u try but try harder.
Semoge hati u slalu tenang and semoge u tw yg i syg u soo much despite all the things that have happened in the past.We're sisters forver and nothing is gonna change that.
I hope ur happy in ur life and u become successful in the future.
I just hope that u noe how much i love youuu.
again Selamat Hari Jadi..Mwahxxx <33

p/s: NO PRESENTS!SORRYY :DD

it just gets better and better =]

2008-10-02T15:03:00.000-07:00

i never knew Eid could be this fun!HONESTLY :D
ive been having sooo much fun these daysss.im happy that IM HAPPY.haha soo gay..
ok sooo;

Day 2

So the 2nd day we had an open hs.so we didnt sleep properly AGAIN for 2days.hahaha.
I woke up with humongous eye bags and it wasnt evn funny of how bad i looked. but then i stuffed up my face with concelear so problem solved :D
so bla bla bla we all got ready.and my friends already promised that they were coming,non-malays that is soo it was gonna be fun.
people started to come at like 1pm so we had time to rest b4 that but when they came i was sooo excited!
then the azmans and zuls came.lagi laaa.kwn maaaa :D
michael came and yessss we were sooo ok by then.reem came with dalia then sufia came soon afta that.
it was OK to what i expected.they felt akward coz it was all malaysians soo they didnt know what to do unlike michael who completely understod everything!hahha u suck,just coz u know malay :P
then bie mira dekna achik came!the highlights of my day!!!!! i LOVE them!
then bie and miraaa hahahaha ade2 je laa.kate M hot and all.i slambe laaa introduce and all.awwwww :D
so we ate we laughed and i had to help mama in the kitchen.biase la ank sulooonggg.benciiii.
then it was time to cut the cake mama daddy beli for angah and achik since their bdays were close.
angah 2nd and achik 16 oct.so perfect time.kebetulan uncle taufik and his son had their bdays the sme days soo wooo 2 yummy bday cakes!
and daddy bot outs from baskin robbins!lagi la meleleh air liurr.hahaha.
then we all sang hppy bday and all and guess who had to cut the cake??ME!hahaha.
believe it or not i took literly half an hour cutting the cake and serving it!
nooo it wasnt my fault!the cake was still hard!thats why!mama was teasing me sooo badly but who cares.hahaha :P

then ummm the other HE came.FUGG.the fugging annoying boyyy.true definition of POYO!
bajet dtg dr mesia with all this poyonesss.yeah yeah i admit he's cute but come on!et a grip of yourself.
pandang2 org cm nak mkn,pastu nak mengada2 lak.haihhhh saket hati jek.
but me as usual wat bodooo je.mls nak lyn.
then bla bla bla mkn ckp bla bla reem and all decided to go to the beach.haha they cudnt stad it no more,i dont blame them.but they said they wud cum back so i was ok with it.
so i was stuck with haziq michael and my girls :D
i was act having fun,talking with michael and all since we havent spoken in ages.hahah :P
then bie mira all had to go to other houses soo tinggal haziq je.we talked lepak kat lua then at 6pm-ish everyone decided nak wat convoy g umah org.
hahah smangat raye betul lah!but it was fun.
we ended up seiing michael and his adorable brother again so i practically chilled with him haziq and my sisters the whole day :D
we went back at 11pm cleaned up and i fell dead sleep
xD

DAY 3

omggg talking about tired!
satu ari kat dahran.hahah from supposedly 4 houses turned out to be what 8?
ahahah but it was the mst fun days ever!
with mira back from mesia it was the bomb!
sumpah i missed that girl!:D mira i wub youuuu <33
from one to house to another,her bie dekna achik and da lil kids wud cum with us in daddy's car.
its as if daddy had sooo many daughters and mama still looked young.hahah!
but one thing that bugged me was the fact that we werent with the Ras Tanura crew coz mama said we wud go on our own.
(we had convoys from RT and Dahran which are two diff Aramco camps in Saudi,we went with the Dahrain convoyy)so we didnt hang out much with haziq and zul.
but wtv!i had my girls!!!
when we were bored we wud randomly go out of the house and go in the middle of the streets and take pics!!
hahaha.i love being who i really am with them.i miss myself.but maaaan this eid totally brought it out!

and oh!one more embarrasing thing thing that happned tday was my pants ripped!
and oh u wud think in a descent place but noooooo.
it was near my butt line!sooo maluuuu !!
dah la laki yg kena tegur bout it.bie lak tergelak2 siap amek gamba.i had to pull down my shirt to cover it.hahahaha.but then ok la tade org pasan pun.
they might have noticed perut boroi i lah.
8 houses,what do u expect!
hahahaha.
nyways tomoro,we might not go anywhere.
finally REST!
haha no more like HOMEWORK time!seriously i need to start my work.aarrgghhh,,,,

Eid Mubarek Everyoneeee :DD

2008-10-01T15:00:00.000-07:00

Day 1

Yeah so that's how they say it here in Saudi Arabia or any Gulf countries.
Was pretty weird for me at first but i got used to it.
Tapi xleh beat lagi org melayu kate,
"Selamat Hari Raye,Maaf Zahir Batin"
sedap gak ckp cm2.:)

ok soo people wud have tot my pagi raye sucked.
technically it was coz we were soooo tired!
dpt tw raye mlm tu afta isyak which was like at 8 sumthing.
mama lagi la panic cm org gile sbb xprepare pape lagi tuk pagi raye.
hahahha.
dah la umah xsiap hias lagi tuk raye.
den raye dtg mengejut.but i was happy.
for no reason kot.cm xde lah i leh agk this year pny raye was gonna be the best but i hoped for it.
so mlm raye tuu we stayed up ALL night until 4am to prepare brg msk and all.
mama as usual msk nasi dagang tganu fames die tu lah.oh yummy :D
daddy lak bz ngan kemas2 umah and gantung2 gamba kteorg especially all the family pics that were kept stuffed in boxes for ages.hahhaa.
its nice to see our family functioning all together.
well i have to tolong mama sediakan bahan tuk msk.sayur and all alah sng je nak handle, smpi mama soh potong aym.
i was like,
"hell no!" hahah i just cant hold a raw chicken or fish or daging.mmg xleh geliiiii.
i ngan slambenye ckp kat mama,"oh mama tape bile along dah besar,nak msk ke pe,g pasar soh drg siang and potong sume." then mama tengking,"alah tape la tade laki nak kat ko dah." hahah siodd je.pastu terpakse laa pegang juga :P
tp gune plastic lah xD
so then kul 4pg br tido we were all exsausted but quite seronok act doing sumthing mlm raye.
kalu kat kmpg lu,tok je la yg sediakan bhn and bibik yg tlg die.now we can act help mama.it was a good feeling tho.
so then pagi raye dtg,i woke up at 8.hahah ok la tu kan?consider we worked our asses off the night b4.
then daddy pun lwk,miss semyang raye!penat pny psl.
see thats what u get for doing ur work at the eleventh hour people.advice to all.haha!
so then we all got ready and stuff.sadly kteorg tade bj raye yg br sbb xsmpt nka tempah so kteorg terpks la pki bj kurung yg beli tuk perkahwinan ayh ngah.it was all mathcing.adek badek pink,mama daddy purple.
hahhaa.
believe it or not 1s raye puuuun dah belambak opn hs!omggg mule2 3umah je,skali tuuu asek dpt jmputan smpi 7buah!penat laaa kteorg satu hari berjln.dah la da next day family kteorg wat opn hs.satu haprak pun xstat lagi.so then off we went to pakcik ???(lupe!) den guess who i saw.HIM.argghh i was like SHIT.
tp dlm hati kena caver jek.jgn nmpk obvious.but then omg,a miracle happened,he saw me and came up to me.
"Selamat hari raye syafiqah." then he hugged me.i was like :O :O :O
i was clueless,one night we're not evn friends,the next morning we were perfectl fine!
i felt relieved tho.it might be a good sign rite?
then we started taliking but it was akward.3 whole weeks with a word out of our mouths and this happens.
rezeki hari raye kot.Alhamdulillah...

then pegi dahran and met up with tons of ppl,it was nice seeing Malaysians kumpul rmi2.rinduuuu rase kat mesia.tp terubat gak tgk meriah raye tahun nih :D

so overall update,
!st day Eid= BETTER :D

raye raye..

2008-09-26T15:19:00.000-07:00

ala,cm nak nanges pun ade.
pk psl raye.siod jek xleh blk.AGAIN.
to think about it,its been 3years since i smbt raye kat mesia.
raye kat saudi,oh gosh pny la babi boring.xleh describe.
kalu kat mesia,now dah stat cuti.
gerenti dah blk tganu.blk kmpg.dok umah Tok.kazen2 sume ade rmi2 keliliing i.
haha i fav drg,wat to do :P
pastu mlm raye,mkn rmi2 cm jamuan je.tok gerenti wat gulai kawah daging fames die tu.
Ya Allah,i pny la mkn bnyk mlm tuuu.mkn budu lagi.hahah dak kmpg an.pastu ratah ikan kering.
i ngan kak murni,mesti da last ones yg abis mkn.haha anak dara xelok betul.mkn bersila pastu pegang ikan kering.org tgk gerenti gelak.but i miss it.kak murni pun kazen plg rpt.tp die dah msk kolej.blk pun jrg.
nak gosip ngan die pun susah.lagi2 bile dah jauh kat cni.raye je lah time nak jmp nak lepak ngan die.gosh i reli miss it.
and then pas makan,i ngan kak murni gak yg tlg kemas2 basuh2 pinggan sume.penat mmg lah,tp kteorg yg plg sulong.kena la tlg an.
then semayang rmi2,daddy slalu jd imam.ye lah die yg plg sulong.
tp now,hm mst ayh ngah yg jd.xtw lah.
pastu wat semayang doa selamat.tuk arwah tok ki,auntie masitah ngan ayh teh.
Arwah ayh teh la plg i windu.dah lme gak die meninngal,tp everytyme nmpk gamba die,mst rase sedih.uncle fav.xsmpt nak ckp selamat tinggal pun kat die.tape,roh die tenang sne.InsyaAllah.
so then pas semayng sume,haaa time dak2 kecik suke ria lah!
main mercun,psg pelita kat lua.
haaa i pun pe lagi,bajet dak kecik arh.men skali!
tp ye la tgk2 kazen at the same time.pny la sonok men ngan drg.
"along along tgk!!" drg sume gerenti jerit nme i,soh tgk die wat pasir terbkr.hahaha.
pny la sonok tgk drg men,org2 tua sume pun dok kat halaman umah tok.sembang2 hal dewasa la agknye.haha tp pak alang ngan daddy x.haaa drg pun lebih kurang je,kalah dak kecik!
psg mercun sume,meletup kat udara!warne warni la umah tok mlm raye.
mlm2 lak tido rmi2,adoyyy kenangan duluuuu.

this year ngan last year,haihhh kenangan amende nye.tah lah.
tgk la cmne.
seb bek ade gak dak2 yg i kenal,drg leh wat i happy ti.lepak ngan drg la mse raye.
cni nak men bunga api,jrg harap lah.agknye kena tembak mati kot kalu pihak polis tngkp/
tade smangat lgsg.
plg sedih,pg raye.tade takbir :(
benda tu la i plg tunggu,tp drg xde kat cni.drg xwat.bgn pg pun cm bgn biase jek.
tade mud dah.
bj raye pun tade.baik xyah :(
saba je la ti.

Selamat Hari Raye sume.
Maaf Zahir Batin.

What happened?

2008-09-19T05:38:00.001-07:00

(names not mentioned)

i xfhm.how cud things get so messed up.
we were so good before. we shared a lot of stuff.
sume org tahu kteorg were close. why did it get screwed up?
you changed.so so much.you dunno but everyone says it.
bnyk hati yg u lukai.mine hers them.
but still u xsedar.i miss you.sngt2 miss you.but i hate you too.
ur too much!ckp belakang org psl benda xbetul.
u wanna attract attention?then so be it.
u tried talking to me,pfft i ignored.xkuase nak lyn u dah.
i cant believe ur like that.i so cannot believe it!
where's the you last year?where's the you that i used to love talking to last year?
everything was perfectly fine at the beginning of this year but then it started to melt away.
you drifted away from me and i did that too.but still.no fights.
then people started asking.asking about you and me.
i said idk. i have no freaking idea what happened.
but still i wat xtw jek.wat bodo jek ngan ape org kate.
then she came along.telling me exactly what happened.
u ckp kat org itu ini.over a stupid reason!i cant believe you!
how fugging immature!xsngke u were like this.sungguh xsngke!
but u noe wat?SCREW YOU!SCREW UR LIFE!SCREW UR SELF!
i cant stand seeing ur face.how pathetic can u be?dun try to talk to me.coz i wont eveer talk to u again.not untill u admit it.its funny how things can be.honestly?ur fugging gay.
with all that drama or urs.im laughing from behind dude.i dont give shit no more.
we'll see what happens.fag.

Alhamdulillah..

2008-09-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah.
that's the first word you wud say if ur grateful for something.
& that's what i said when that incident happened.
last saturday, something hapenned.and trust me no one wud assume it would happen.
but im thankful,because of my ego and stubborness, i dnt get caught up in the mess that they had to go through.because i didnt want to be put in a disturbing condition, i wasnt involved in that accident.

last saturday, kteorg sume nak blk dorm mcm biase.and yes transport is provided so daddy anta i ngan angah kat luar camp meaning outside of the compound where we live. then as usual dah smpi,tgk2 the driver already arrived, but since there were alot of us dormies this weekend, there were two GMC's. but the problem was i xngam ngan sum of the them so i got annoyed easily.
hahah yeah yeah that's sooo me :P
so then when i saw them at one of the GMC i decided to go on the other just so we didint have to be in the same car as them!
very immature much? but yeah that saved my mood from being spoiled.
so then turns out that the other GMC and the one i was in was already full so we all left.
i felt alseep in the car and i was in the passenger's seat.
and it takes like 2 hrs nak smpi bahrain so ape lagi i nyenyak la tido.
then suddenly Ziq started screaming.jerit cm org gile.
"omg!omg! they crashed!wtf weyy??"
i bgn and i marah la mule2 coz he disturbed me from sleeping!i looked around and we were just about to enterthe causeway to the immigrasi part.
but then everyone else started screaming too, they all said the other car crashed too.!
i pun menggelabah cm crazy i asked the driver to stop the car immediately! everyone rushed out of the car and ran in the middle of the highway!
we rushed to the car and i was completely shocked!the fromt part of the car was completely crushed!! kemek!guess what crased them? LORI TANGKI MINYAK YG BESAR!
the i felt sooo scared for the people but then one by one came out of the car.
Alhamdulillah they were all fine. the girls were horrified and even the ones i ade mslh with came up to me and hugged me.they were crying like crazy loud.people were coming out their cars to see what happened.
they were in trauma.honestly im not a bad person.evn if i had problems with them, i couldnt stop to feel sorry for them.
it was a bad accident and thank Allah no one got hurt.
then he got out. i felt so bad. i havent talked to him in two weeks.
we just cant be friends anymore. but i was scared most of all for him. he came to me and i hugged him as tight as i cud. i was so glad he was alright. i asked the others what the hell happened.
the is the story;

The driver that was driving their car was the normal driver that picked us up every weeked, and honestly he was a good driver except of his crazy speeding.The driver was really really REALLY stupid.
ok at the causeway, there are 3 lanes for vehicles supposedly.,
but one lane,the one in the middle is special for mega big trucks and as people know, saudi and bahrain are famous for its oil and all so they were oil tank trucks.
so then the driver wanted to reach the causeway fast so the student could get through immigration quick.
he made a stupid move by going through the oil tank lane when he saw an empty spot.
suddenly when he didnt notice one of the trucks wanted to move foward and it crushed the side of the GMC.then the driver lost control and got hit again at the front of the GMC!
Tapi yg bgs sngt2 was the car didnt explode or anything.
Syukur Alhamdulillah lah.because anything cud cause the car to explode especially bile langgar lori tangki minyak.and to top that off TWICE!
the driver's life was already screwed,he's gonna lose his job first of all and myb face law suits from the parents.
but i was really mad at him.it was completely his fault but he never attempted to say sorry at all!
so then a replacement car came and took all of the kids that were involved in the accident.
we went back into our GMC and ondaway our driver confessed that of he didnt avoid the car that got crashed we would have got crushed too!
Ya Allah sumpah mase tu i was soo thankful that we went into that car and not the one that got crashed!
I cud never imagie being in that kind of car accident!i reallly cant.
i was gonna cry for all of them coz i felt so bad.
But i was glad that we were saved from it too.
Sometimes dlm hidup,kte kena bersyukur sngt3. I rase cm2 sekarang.
Ade mase bile kteorg xkan ske ngan ape yg kte ade dlm hidup but at most of the times, something good is going to come.
I rase geram ngan a few kids and coz of my stubborness i was saved.
Make good choices people.xoxo

IB

2008-09-12T15:21:00.000-07:00

its pretty crazy.
ehem yeah sure absolutely!
well its 0122 in the morning here.and im still awake.
TRYING to at least finsih one of my homework but its sooo hard to concentrate.
guess whats killing me these days?
IB!yeah i kinda forgot what its long name called but really it is!
i have never been so caught up in my studies for as long as i remember!
and the sad part is HAHA i have no clue what im learning in class somtimes.
and the most killer subject?
P.H.Y.S.I.C.S
yeah someone shoot me now.i have no freaking idea what im doing in that class.but i have to try right?

You see i had this very AMAZING new year resolution.(kinda)
that was to work and study really hard this year.
no play time no social time but noooo i just had to break it!
so far,i havent gone near to staying in my room for 2hours and at least get my hw done.
instead after 30 minutes i feel like im suffocating in the room.( whats that phobia people get when they stay in small spaces? i forgot)
so then i say to myself,"oh ill go out for just a bit to get grapes or snacks or something and come back."
but noooo i just had to go and chill in front then talk talk talk.yup nice studying skills ive got right?
im soo screwed this year.im getting tutors for calculus and physics. God help me.

I need to get a head start.yeah.really really need to get a head start.

Someone who I cherish.

2008-09-12T14:33:00.000-07:00

Yeah you.yes you.
Muhammad Naim.
i called you at umm I forgot when, just to wish you and you didnt pick up.
i tried calling again but hampeh.
so i left you a message, saying 'pick up the hp will you.'
u messaged back. saying 'sorry i tdo' so typical of you.
then i called.didnt pick up again. went back to sleep.
woke up at 12 (in Saudi). tried again.
FINALLY, u picked up.
Gosh i missed talking to you badak.It was realy nice.
I missed it. you sounded tired. yeah maybe cause you puase.but still it was really nice to hear ur lazy voice.haha.
I had so much to say to you.But yeah i just woke up so i lost the words.
So much to express but was too tired to do so.
So here;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BADAK!
semoga you sentiase happy and bahagia always.
i hope you find your peace in anything you do.
i hope u always succeed. i hope you're always healthy.
i hope u never give up in life. i hope u still keep an open mind if life fails you again.
i hope you never forgot how much a great friend you've been to me.
i hope even if people talk crap or shit about you, you would remember i'm here kicking their asses for you.
i hope that you know that i love you to bits and pieces and i would never forget you.
i hope that you know that i wish you well at all times.
i hope that you realize that i'm still here to lend an ear to listen to you.
i hope that you know i really miss you.
so biarlah bulan puase skalipun, have fun and be happy on your birthday.
you're getting old buddy, i just realized.haha.
pegilah kuar mkn ngan kwn2 you and cheer up. i wanna do that but im too far away.

So this is my wish for you. My hopes and thoughts for you.
Again happy bday badak.
I miss you & love you.

Why a blog? :)

2008-09-11T14:09:00.000-07:00

Ok. Honestly?
I have no idea why the hell I set up this blog.
Do I have a life? YES.
Then again, blogs are for people who wish to share their lives. Right?
So am I messing around here? Hmm MAYBE.
Spilling all my thoughts? DEFINITELY.
So motif? still don't know, still thinking.

Precautions:
- life related, so shut up if you don't agree.
-life related, so try to understand.
-life related- so no judging.
-mixes of languages,so bare with it.

Basically, I guess it's all about the whos and whats in my life.

xoxo